Wednesday, March 30, 2005

ok..i agree the japanese guy is very charming...is very very...
ok...today's event was a great sucess..i'm loving it..haha
ok..
i'm sick of being mi...i jus sux...
tml sentosa day.. going out..i'm happy to go out with them...very happy.. haha...after tml.. wat will happen?
i dunno... i dun even noe..who am i? haiz...... why am i here?
i really really really sucks lo... i hate michelle bong.. why is she still around?

haiz...love...
i saw him today...his backview oni... haiz.......
tml sentosa day... stress ar...duno whether is he going anot..then dunno she going anot.. haiz...stress..

finally..i finished my last paper... today paper abit..i aso dunno how to describe it... then after the exam, went for my lig meeting.. it is a very long meeting... then send yaling n sharky to the hair salon...basically...the skill of the hairstylist...erm.. i dunno how to describe it aso..haha..
today i chatted wif my fren of mine ...finally..her problem is solved...she n her bf together again...so happy for them...cheers.... happy ending is always the best...
and i saw another fren of mine...sorry lah ck.. i mus be professional mah.. cannot say their name.. coz..confidential...newspaper aso liddat rite..hehe.. anyway..i saw him today... he was so ..dwn... seem so lifeless... haiz.. quite worried abt him.. and he didn study for his paper somemore... i dunno how to console him..honestly..if i were him.. i will aso be liddat...life seem more meaningless....but once u move on...it will be different le... but to move on require alot alot time...... haiz... if u reading tis... i mean u...u shld noe whu i'm refering to.. i hope u can move on... there is many kinds of relief... u noe..singing..dancing.. playing...chatting... ok..stop ur habit k... takecare ...

today.early in the morning..went out wif my family n my grandparents to sweep our ancestors' tombs....tis is our chinese tradition, qing ming jie... many many ppl there ar...so crowded... we went to mandai lst..then to guang ming shan..haha... one thing so qiao lo..i saw tis guy at mandai...then i met him again at guang ming shan... anyway..it is a very tiring day... i went home n fell asleep haha..
ok..lst i wan to say smth to a my fren.. erm.. love is a wonderful thing.. it is very terrible for u ..when u jus enjoying it n it left u ... many things are not within our control... u told mi b4...killing ourself becoz of love no pt rite....so no point things harming urself too... learn to love urself before ppl can love u.. i noe u may tinking smoking is a relief to u...but it won't help...really...trust mi..smoking oni stress u up...it made ur brain cracks..really u go internet search lo...
ok...now to my another fren of mine... sh ..really sorry abt tis few days..i'm busy wif my stupid stuff...hope u n ur dear is ok... sometimes..oni u n him can solve the problem oni...life is like tis... relationship require problem based learning..... i'm also quite a failure in tis love love things lah....my conclusion for u is..tok to him...in a relationship,communication is very important..u dun noe how to tok..u mus learn how to..... nobody can help unless u help urself... seriously... be strong n brave... face it.. really..
haha..suddenly like very pro in tis kind of things... haha.. honestly speaking is easier than doing it..haha..but we learn mah... i'm learning... seeing so many ppl sad becoz of love..haiz.. i aso duno wat to say.... jus let it be bah...haiz..gd nite everybody...

ok.. i tink i wisely is so cool... omg... haha....gallen lo is so cool,smart, charming..in that show lah..... omg...haha...anyway..today ..busy wif my marketing stuff.. sometime i'm jus thinking...is it worth to study so much for my next paper.. i mean ..that terrible tutor of mine..he always got a impression that student can;t get an A easily...and hence he graded us , the whole conhort oni 2 person got an A for their coursework.. not that i'm saying i'm a very damn gd student excel in everything, i'm jus average but i wan to question his grading system and his calculation..my fren who is gd in his studies got oni a B lo... and honestly i dunno wat to say lah.. maybe he got his own way of grading students...but i jus hope he can be more transparent in marking.. at least inform us what we got for our project.. since we did our own project we shld therefore be informed rite...
haiz... I L W........

i tink the scv channel 55 hongkong drama series very nice.. it is called "the W file" if i'm not wrong and the other one is "lady fan"..... that male lead character in "the w file" is called wisely..in chinese is called wei si li.. i find the actor(luo jia liang) very charming..he looked like that kind of man that will protect his wife and very calm n steady person...however..he is a divorcee...dunno why.. and the show is nice...haha..dunno why.. the other one is lady fan.. the story aso quite sad... is abt a ger frm xiliang tribe.. entering the Tang's place..to marry her so-called destined husband(xue ding shan).. pity her.. always kanna bullied by her parent-in-laws and her husband..and the worst thing..her husband n his family bluffed her.. as that her husband to marry his concubine.. poor lady fan....but she didn give up.. very pei fu her... so determined...
ok.. ystdy nite..they were dicussing the sentosa trip..all of them were very enthu abt it.. i tink it has been quite a long time since our last trip.. i'm also very look forward wif this coming outing..
and saying abt sentosa... i tink the sentosa is undergoing many renovations and upgrading stuffs.. .and there is no more monorail.. haiz..so sad.. monorail is unique..but..haiz.. anyway.. everything to change and make improvement....old things mus make way for the new things... wat to do...
and ystdy..chatted wif my fren.. i tink she has been tortured by love..to be specific..is her bf love.. i dunno wat happen to her bf.. he seemed to change his attitude towards his gf.. i dunno why... she loved him deeply..yet he said their relationship is a lie.... asked him why..he said he got no idea... i tink is so unfair to my fren.. she jus wan to love him..yet he said she can't be trusted...i was thinking but in the lst place why does he wan to be wif her if he tinks she been lying to him... i really dun understand.. haiz.... now my fren was hurted badly.. very badly...but after wat he did and said to her.. she was devastated..yet she dun wan to lose him... love is so blind... haiz... tis world is so farnie.. love ..ppl hate it.. avoid it.. ..sad becoz of it... and yet there are ppl who wan to be in love... but i'm still a love- believer..... but one of my fren said.. one kg of love worth how much... many things are jus not within our control..haiz..

frank told mi..water sux... but i said water is nice..so i asked frank instead.. can we be together.. haha..frank was shocked.. in fact he tot i'm jokking.. but it is quite obvious frank will reject mi.. i noe.. if frank can reject..so does water can.. water is nice.. i jus wan to clarify ...weiting is a nice person.. he is definitely one of the nicest guy i met.. i tink the problem lies wif mi..shoulda be so thick-skinned... ppl dun like fat ugly ger.. tis is the fact.. i really hope huisian n frank dun say water sux le.. he got every right to reject mi tis stupid n ugly n fat n big ger... he very nice le.... frank i noe u are a nice person too.love ya..but. pls dun be offended k.. i jus hope u dun misunderstand him..

i'll wait......

love

I wan to scream ar...why u all lidat... i dunno wat shld i say...

i tink Mcfly's song, "she left me" very nice..haha the music..very nice
the song goes like tis...

She walked in and said she didn't wanna know
Anymore
Before i could ask why she was gone ut the doorI didn't know,
what i did wrongBut now i just can't move on
Since she left meShe told meDon't worryYou'll be ok you don't need me
Believe me you'll be fineThen i knew what she meant
And it's not what she said
Now i can't believe that she's gone
I tried calling her up on her phone
No one's there,I've left messages after the tone...
Really?Yeah man loads
I didn't know, what i did wrongBut now i just can't move on

today logmod paper ar.... terrible....
Laugh and the world laughs with you; cry and you cry alone. - Horace (65-8 BC)
i tink tis saying is very true... so ppl lets laugh together...haha.

sorry ppl... i noe i'm very silly...wat i meant is that...life is too short.. so if i die tml or even today..nth to regret le... i got a nice family n knew all of u my frenz.. i'm very happy and glad le.. so die aso no regrets...jus a except for one small small regret... i wan to thx ck...sorry ck.. to scare u ... then thx yahui n sean..for ur encouragement.. i'm ok... life is unpredictable de...life is too short le..i won't do silly things..dun worry... my die meaning natural death lah.. if i'm destined to die today... i won't live until tml rite. so i might no be able to say gd bye to u all lo... dun worry..i won't commit suicide... anyway..regarding water rite.. i gave up le... love is a 2 way traffic..one way no pt de... haiz... dun tok abt him le...
haha... ok lah...frenz...jiayou k..for ur examinations....

i actually very contented le and lucki.. i'm 18 tis year.got to stay in tis safe and wonderful, fine country.... got many nice..caring.. frenz..nice ppl.. got a loving family.. my ah gong, ah ma...aunties, uncles n my cousins treat mi so nice and my daddy n my mummy...n my 2 little bros.... if i were to die tml... aso no regret le except for one small small regret....other than that ....shld be ok le bah... wat to do.... so if i were to die tml... n no time to say gd bye to u all ...i mean my frenz n my family...sorry abt it k.. life is too short... so now i shall say it lst k... Gd bye!!! enjoy life!!!!... and if there is no more update in my blog in the future....u all shld noe where am i ...haha...either up there in the sky wif the gods...or below in the hell....anyway..it is late ... gd nitez everybody...byebye!!!

I'll love you more with every breath Truly, madly, deeply do ....I want to live like this forever Until the sky falls down on me... i'm crazi... haha ...pls 4give mi.4 not keeping my promise... sorry... pls dun hate mi .... i'm not stubborn... i'm jus idiotic.. a well in front of mi, i still jumped into it...is painful indeed..maybe i drowned myself... but i hope there is always a well in front of mi... dun remove it..

ok... 2 days after his b'day le...but i still can rem... my fren told mi.. maybe it was a bad decision to go.. but if i didn go.. it would be very terrible of mi bah.. as wat yahui had told mi..i will regret if i didn go...yes i definitely agreed wif her but now i.... haiz...... i wan water not tea .... realized tea is oni a shield ..a shield to 4get everything and move on... my biggest fear happened le... haiz.. i'm back again.. finally climbed up frm the well. then fall into it again... i dunno why i like water so much... i' m really really really happy he invited mi and i went.. the feeling is..indescribable.. haiz...... terrible.. my study week began le..but i haven study yet...
and ya..today went out wif my family n visited my 4th uncle and my newly-born cousin, zi xian... he is so sweet.. so cute n small...haha... i wan a baby too..haha jus kiddin lah... after the visit, we went to bukit timah nature reserve...it was fun..climbing lo...but tiring lah... haha... but i like it...
and yahui.. dun feel sad k...

i got 2 words..to describe my feeling..happy.. saw him..met him.. tok to him... omg...am i dreaming........
sad... yh lost her hp n wallet.. shld haf remind her

ya..today is weiting's b'day... went to his b'day dinner treats... i was in fact very very belly belly happy... in my heart lah... haha..we didn tok much though... but i'm happy le..haha long time nv see him le leh.. is like one whole nite can see him..not bad le..haha... thx mingshu, thx yahui, thx ck, thx many other ppl who encouraged mi to go... thx alot.... i was very scared n worried...but lucki i went for it...
and my poor yahui...she is so unlucki today..morning kanna stomach pain..then at nite lost her stuff..... sorry pal...i feel very gulity..shld haf remind u whether u got ur hp and not ask u to play that thing.. mus takecare k... hope that person will be kind enough to return u...

happy Birthday to you !!!!!!!!! :)

happy Birthday to you !!!!!!!!!!!

haahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
water called mi........he called mi....

jus now i taking tis why are u still single test.. is kinda accurate..haha
and the results :


Why Are You Still Single?
Bong, you're single because you don't want to get hurt

Ever heard the expression, "Once bitten, twice shy?" You can probably relate to this, can't you? Your last relationship may have left you a little raw in emotions, and the memories are likely still fresh in your mind. Fresher than you can sometimes believe. With a hurt like that, you're probably not so eager to enter the drama again — and we can't say that we blame you. You may be so afraid of getting hurt that you take things to heart big-time when you're involved with someone — after all, you've been hurt before, why can't it happen again? You also may be guilty of comparing potential mates to your ex who may still constantly loom large in your mind.But maybe, just maybe, it's time to check your baggage at the door and let a new person into your life with a clean slate. You have a lot to offer someone, but you can't do it when you have one foot firmly planted in the past.


haha...quite true....

jus now i taking tis why are u still single test.. is kinda accurate..haha
and the results :


Why Are You Still Single?
Bong, you're single because you don't want to get hurt

Ever heard the expression, "Once bitten, twice shy?" You can probably relate to this, can't you? Your last relationship may have left you a little raw in emotions, and the memories are likely still fresh in your mind. Fresher than you can sometimes believe. With a hurt like that, you're probably not so eager to enter the drama again — and we can't say that we blame you. You may be so afraid of getting hurt that you take things to heart big-time when you're involved with someone — after all, you've been hurt before, why can't it happen again? You also may be guilty of comparing potential mates to your ex who may still constantly loom large in your mind.But maybe, just maybe, it's time to check your baggage at the door and let a new person into your life with a clean slate. You have a lot to offer someone, but you can't do it when you have one foot firmly planted in the past.


haha...quite true....

haiz....attended my last uir tutorial today... finally completed my cds Credit units.... tmr will be the last day for this sem.. my last pom tutorial and aso my last logmod lect ... after tmr... study week le...change klassmates le...cannot same grp again le.... time flies....tmr will aso water's b'day.. realised didn get him anything.. ha ha.... dunno lah..see how... i tink gif him watever, he jus thanked and throw it aside bah becoz frm mi.. i dunno.. i jus assumed oni...
haiz....... i dunno.... i tink i won't tok bah...realised silence is so nice.....peaceful....is gd to be quiet...

jus now.. i tried the " why are u still single" test and the result kinda accurate..haha


Why Are You Still Single?
Bong, you're single because you don't want to get hurt

Ever heard the expression, "Once bitten, twice shy?" You can probably relate to this, can't you? Your last relationship may have left you a little raw in emotions, and the memories are likely still fresh in your mind. Fresher than you can sometimes believe. With a hurt like that, you're probably not so eager to enter the drama again — and we can't say that we blame you. You may be so afraid of getting hurt that you take things to heart big-time when you're involved with someone — after all, you've been hurt before, why can't it happen again? You also may be guilty of comparing potential mates to your ex who may still constantly loom large in your mind.But maybe, just maybe, it's time to check your baggage at the door and let a new person into your life with a clean slate. You have a lot to offer someone, but you can't do it when you have one foot firmly planted in the past.


ha ha....

Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

haiz.... cried last nite....realised myself kinda useless... haiz....... i dun understand why my tears gland so active recently... until i so expressionless... dunno why lah...pls 4give mi if u see my smile so fake ... i jus can't do it bah... really tired..
today noon, mark lee n jack neo' s cast went to our sch... honestly , mark dun really sings very well.. or maybe is the sound system problem.. then went to 800+ there buy fruits wif my ah ma... saw mrs pang there...she so surprised bah..coz today my klass ended quite early....
then at nite, saw johnson and dunno whu...haha dunno is a guy or a ger leh... coz he on his bike lah.. called mi ... then i so surprised..haha..
still feeling so terrible..painful....alot of tings i wan to say it out yet i can't ..i duno how to say it bah...so i will be very quiet for dunno until when lah.. so ppl if i saw u and i didn say hi pls 4give mi k.. i dun wan to open my mouth....i hate to tok.. all my tokings sux.. meaningless... ..sorry frenz... haiz.......but i'm happy for my psychologist..at least he is very very very happy bah... ha ha...jiayou ar..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i wan to scream............. haiz.......
michelle pls stop crying............
stupid michelle... i hate u 4ever...........

i tink backstreet boys song ' how did i fall in love with you? ' damn nice ...
haiz... i dunno...today meeting was great.. haha...my pRC so farnie...anyway.. everyone was in their smartest suit bah..haha.. i can't regconize johnson..but he shuai lah..
and ya..the pictures..to yahui , u look great today..very pretty... haha..and the foto aso very nice..haha...stand so close.. hehe... i noe i did smth very stupid..haha. johnson n sean wan to hood mi... but i tink it would be betta if one sad..than 2 person sad rite...... i jus wan him to be happy bah... haha..
and ya..i saw water today.. i went in the library, he came out the library....i saw him... i dunno he see mi anot... haiz......
haiz..i tink tis holiday.. u ppl won't able to find mi le... i wan to go hide n run away frm all tis.. i hate my feelings... i realy hate it.............so frenz..be prepared i may be missing for tis holiday...

还隐隐作痛
要伤心多久 我才能看透 离开你多久 手才会放松 是否我在妳的心里还有一点痛爱情随风 心彻底放松 让自己疯还隐隐作痛 还记得你笑容这回忆多么沉重 宁愿没有过还隐隐作痛 还看见你放手这回忆多么美丽 刺痛我心头我心头

What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?....
omg........ be positive... come on misshell... u can de... i wan my old self back...........pls...............................................................................................................................................

ok....mingshu is rite too....

~ mË駺µP ~♣ hahahaa....call mi AH DU ~ *cannot talk...shout...scream or sing for next 3 days* says:
ur love wun be reciprocated
♣~ mË駺µP ~♣ hahahaa....call mi AH DU ~ *cannot talk...shout...scream or sing for next 3 days* says:
no pt
♣~ mË駺µP ~♣ hahahaa....call mi AH DU ~ *cannot talk...shout...scream or sing for next 3 days* says:
like some1 who like u back

haiz..... it is very true, very real........... i dun wan to fall into a pit..and no one can pull mi out...

Love knows no reasons, love knows no lies. Love defies all reasons, love has no eyes. But love is not blind, love sees but doesn't mind. ~ by Author unknown ~


Sometimes we let affection, go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the best.
by Author unknown


i tink all thoes quotes are very meaningful.. haiz.. today, i'm bored again.. then when i'm bored..i will start to tink stupid stuffs..sometimes i wish my brain has gone missing... sometimes i wish u can be normal again.. hope u noe i'm refering to u.....
i dunno wat is love ...i'm lousy....nv been in a relationship b4...
alot of ppl do not wan love someone..becoz they are afraid that their love would not be reciporcated.. haiz...but love is to give without expecting any returns... so contradicting....
haiz..guess i'm going to disappear too....

True love doesn't have a happy ending: True love doesn't have an ending.

Love is like war, Easy to begin but hard to end.

joee is rite... u cannot love 2 person at one time.....so i decide le..i dun love lo.... let it be bah.... haha.... tea or water... it will be gd...if both mix together..haha... one is hairy..the other is hairless..haha... both love basketballs.....one dances... the other plays guitar.... one eats alot..the other eat jus nice... one loves milkshake...then other prefer water..haha..one likes C...the other likes Y...haha... totally different kinds... how come....dun ask mi y...love lives in strange places, it's obvious that nv shows, it might just find u when u least expected....

argh..... idiot mi.......

i noe..i'm so greedy... my psycho..jus made mi awake...haha.. he said he super duper in love wif her....... i realised.... I love both TEA N WATER !!!!!!!!!!!! I love both!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg................ yes yes yes ... i love them.....i'm going crazy..ha ha ha..........

today..very tired... went to hospital.. CGH is very terrible lo...the nurses there...lost my granny urine test report lo...omg........terrible xia.....
ok...last nite.. mus keep checking my granny temperature ... feed her medicine...... then continue until today..... but she is ok now le....so i aso relaxed le....
and last nite i aso quite vexed..i like him mah? or i jus wan to change target becoz i wan to 4get h20.... or i really like him? ...so damn frustrating ..haha..i noe is kinda farnie lah... dunno ..then dun tink rite..haha..dun tink means i can nv get the ans leh...its bad...
help mi.......

ok...i did smth..very very....i dunno shld i say it ....it very scary for mi... all my cute frenz...noe whu i like ...not all lah..but at least 2 of them knew abt it...i very very very...nervous...it supposed to be my secret..now got 3 ppl nono shld be 4 including mi...haiz...today my psychologist..haha.. i dunno leh..his counselling session not bad ar..lol....so scary......scary......but i still dunno whu i like .....water or tea is betta? lol...hahha.....

now is 1.30pm..i can't slp...too confused..my psychologist...keep encouraging mi..and he can read my mind quite well..he noes wat i'm thinking and expressed it into words...... but i can't find the solution .... it is terrible... painful... my brain is not working.. ....i'm an idiot.....

today...my comskill test.. ok...i can say..finally...i almost completed my comskill 2 liao..except for the role play lo... which i tink is quite critical for mi lo....dun care le...
then my uir...today i wan to finish it..but i doubt i can do it...haha...haiz...
am i in love or jus infatuation?