{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness
{fellows}

cheryl}
 emily}
 Shihui}
 yahui}
 weiren}
 chee wee}
 fira}
 sulin}
 daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 Afianne
 Blogskins.com
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 Miss M
 44suburbia
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

woah... this week passed real fast... learnt alot..... how a middle man can be sandwiched by customer and haulier...
now more independent... i can handle 3 shipments.. import one lah...hehe...except the costing part..which i haven learn...lol...
basically... this week was so....i dunno..weird...
i wish i can tok to him more... but i guess... yup move on...
jus now watched scary movie 4 with cheryl...it was freaking lame... basically it is a movie insulting some ppl.. but they found very lookalike ppl to imitate the real stars... and that handsome lad... he is so handsome.....lol.... very lame on the whole... but the lady beside me is so terrible... she put her leg out and rest her very very u noe the ______ feet on the front seat... sickening ... so inconsiderate...
then her bf can still tanhan..i feel like smacking her face... lol... i mean come on... u are a ger...sit like a ger does... ok.. young lady instead of ger...respect urself and respect the person in front of u mah...
then i met hin kheng, patrick , kenneth and yuping after the movie..basically they dun really recognise..except yuping i guess...haha...
erm... tml morning going medical check-up... wish me luck.. but i was quite puzzled why does the clinic wan to open at such a high storey... 36 floor man... the doc mus be very high..lol... hopefully he is handsome... at least dun spoil my saturday morning...haha

12:38 PM;

Monday, February 13, 2006

Today went out with my parent to harbourfront... alot of memories came back to me... i jus realised... i've been with him for around one year.. in sch..in tutorial classes.... do projects.. he is my longest projectmate... been doing projects wif him for 3 consecutive sems.. .during SIP in nol..lunch with him in the NOL cafeteria... been crapping wif him for quite sometimes..considered very long fren liao... maybe i didn treasure...shld have treasure all those times...but all humans are liddat... when you have it.. u dun treasure it..but when is gone.. u realised it will be gone forever by then.. i dunno... if i could, i would turn back the times...
I am very grateful to whoever up there.. i mean the heaven.. fate or god.. thank you for giving me all those times.... i am really happy... perhaps fate or god realised it's time up... u taking it away from me... perhaps u have arranged something esle for me... i dunno... i am not greedy... i just wish i can always stand beside him, to be there for him... i know very foolish person indeed... shalene is right.. i am always wishing.... shld have wake up from this... i am fully aware.. he nv love me like the way i do.. but like me as a fren... .. i'm aware... many thought i was sad when my love was not reciprocated...lol... it was nt the reason...i was sad becoz i will miss him.. we will be moving on..to our separate way... i duno wad fate will lead me to... but for now... i really miss him... the gd old days... wad will happen nxt ..we will nv noe... oni god knows... haha...
Terence,I miss u...takecare.

6:38 AM;


erm.... i noe it sound cliche... but i tink i jus wan to say
"If in this lifetime, I wont get to have you, I'll make sure that if I meet you in my next lifeI wont have to think twice on saying that "I waited a lifetime to say I love you..."

lol.. so nice...

6:38 AM;


actually i just realised something, my groupmates mistaken me liao.. they thought i'm keeping a distance from mao mao becoz i'm running away. but as a matter of fact, i'm not, it jus that all along we always got tis gap... lol.. if get to close to him...also very weird.. i canot deny,,maybe the gap has increased...but is normal bah... is like last time is oni 2 of us... then got new members in our grp...hence the gap will grow de bah..lol. .. really dun understand..... but anyway..is going to end... so..yup..gotta move on.... now if i got one wish, i jus hope we could be best fren lah..lol.. though i dun tink will happen.. somehow things have changed..once it changes... it will nv regain the same again...

6:38 AM;


disppointed wif u...
disappointed becoz u nv takes my word for real
u tink i am a lamer..great... i am crappy..some idiotic freak
disappointed becoz i waited for ur ans and u ignored me..
this is wad hurts most...
perhaps i dun deserve ur attention...
great, this is wad we called as frens..gd frenz
is ok anyway...
i won't need ur reply anymore... neither i will reply u...but i guess u aso won't have the chance.
dun blame me... anyway.. i doubt u care..
haha, wad a joke... my gd gd fren

i shed my tears once again for u ...
as i jus realised u got lamer fren
she is lame, foolish and real dumb...
perhaps... she is shldn be ur fren in the lst place...
not fit to...
she weep for nitez
but not knowing why...
all she hopes to be ur best fren...to stay beside you.
However, time waits for no one.
as each day passes...
she knows in his heart ... there is no she in it...
ended up.. she realised she was such a fool..
in his heart, she is jus a lame person that dun deserve any attention
maybe he is just right...

6:38 AM;


i'm not having depression...
do u understand me...
but i doubt u care...
i dun noe wad's wrong with us...
i acted like there is nth wrong...
i dunno

6:38 AM;


it hurts when u told me to do so...
it hurts when i noe u dun wan to see me
it hurts when i noe u r avoiding
i nv wanted anything from u...
i can see that u dun wan to care
it doesn't really matters to me now..
becoz u broke me

6:38 AM;

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