*loves:
*loathes:
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking
,
throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches
cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}
Thursday, September 29, 2005
ok..u stupid mao mao...lied to me ystdy nite...smsed me that u r in hospital .... really makes me worried lo..call u so many times...didn ans... didn reply my msg.... at the point of time... i really dun wan u to go... dun wan u to be hurt... and i realised i really fallen for u... but i won't do anything tis time le..haha..dun wan to repeat my mistakes again... we always gd frenz k.... haha..and becoz u didn reply me... i wait for ur reply until 12am...then i buaytahan and fell asleep... then morning see ur stupid msg... " haha bluff u lah :P".... bad xia.... dun have enough slp lo...
then today got the fire drill in my company... haha..cannot take life..mus use the stairs...then i'm at 18th level... buaytahan...head darn giddy... after finishing 18 floors of stairs.... haha...
Sunday, September 25, 2005
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here
In my arms
How does one waltz away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
Cannot dream
Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along
Saturday, September 24, 2005
i tink i miss u weiting...where r u now? haiz...
i'm happy now... i dun love u anymore... i jus miss u... contradicting... i tink so too...
do i love mao mao? or i jus love him becoz i need a companion... or maybe i do love mao mao..
Saturday, September 17, 2005
i hope someone can understand me.. understand how i feel.. help me... where r u???
i dun wan to cry anymore... i'm on my verge....
Friday, September 16, 2005
changed my blogskin, blog links... dunno why... maybe i need to change myself too...haiz... i need a shoulder...but i cant find one.... nobody talks to me... i am all alone here...
Thursday, September 15, 2005
haiz... i got a news from my lecturers..... i can see sentosa everyday.... meaning i will be working near there where i can see sentosa clearly... erm... i like sentosa.. very nice beaches over there..but i nv predict that i can see it everyday... cool...haha... today went for lom day briefing and LIG general meeting...then after that go Penang/ KL trip presentation... reminds me alot of happy days... haiz... how i wish i can rewind the time... but still gotta move on...yupp...
hahahahha...finally... he say hi to me for the lst time in msn...
crying.............. i need a shoulder... haiz....
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
jus came back frm chalet, very fun...though only few of us... played silly qns games.. i finally learnt and noe how to play mahjong liao... mahjong is so fun... abit addicted to it liao..hee... lst day in chalet.. the whole afternoon spend to buy bbq stuffs... then the rest of the evening.. ck, mingshu, shalene and kelvin played mahjong while me and weiyuan.. watched tv... kelvin very suay... he got stuck in the rain..spent about 14 bucks... on cab fare..becoz..he can't find his way to our chalet...raining very heavily...but luckily..he found his way... lucky fella... then we ordered canadian pizza for our dinner... kelvin won alot for the mahjong game bah...he was dancing like a chicken...then keep saying " chicken wings".... silly... then we went to changi village at abt 10+ near 11pm liao... we wanted to get some drinks and to see those " pretty women"... then we went to cheers.. got our drinks.. we walked around the village there.. then went to changi jetty... walked past the carpark...saw a pretty lady..but we were all aware that she is a... then we tricked kelvin to go to lst level of the changi jetty... that was weiyuan's idea... then it was quite late that time liao... abt 11.30 pm liao.. ck and kelvin went home together, leaving me, mingshu, shalene and weiyuan going bACK to our chalet... then we continued our mahjong game...played until 2am...then we went to bathe... then all of us stayed in one room..played poker... then chatted..then played some silly qns games.... then i gained alot of extra knowledge...we stayed up until 5am in the morning... then weiyuan went out.. 3 of us fell asleep liao... until the nxt day 10am.... haha
then nxt day morning...after finishing our wash-up... we prepared the food stuffs ..thinking that many ppl will come...esp one fella who told me that he eat alot... becoz of him hor..we prepared quite lots of food... ended up.. den one sms saying that he is not feeling well.. not coming liao... i dunno wad to sAY...if he is really sick...then takecare.... i really got nth to say..but if is not...i'm very disappointed ..won't trust his words anymore... but i won't trust his words anymore now le.. great disappointment lo... i noe is very bad to assume that he is lying...but i'm really not convinced with that sms... if u dun wan to go... tell us in the lst place... it is not as if i didn call u the day before... and not oni once...we called abt 3 times.... jus inform me mah..its fine if u dun feel like going....its fine if u dun take my words seriously and i dun mean anything..
but i do take things seriously.... i dunno..tell u but i'm so disappointed... :( somehow dun wish ....nth lah... dun tok abt it liao...
then joee arrived lst...but then the skies were grey... we were like praying... but ended up..it really drizzled... sian lo... then the bbq fire ald started..but all of us gotta ran back to our chalet.. but it is like awhile ...then we continued our bbq...then a cat joined us...haha... yahui and ht joined us later....they aso can't find their way there...haha..that chalet can consider quite ulu lah..haha..but is huge...then jiaxian and frens joined us... we had fun lah... then we got to see "fairy"..haha....
I like to thank those who attended our chalet...thx ppl love ya... and shalene.."our main sponsor"...without her...we won't be able to book the chalet... and aso weiyuan, thx u so much for the breakfast and the extra knowledge..hee... then thx ck for the mahjong set and the beer... love ya... and jiaxian, yaling, nat, yali..for the satay... and yahui and ht...thx for coming..really appreciated it... and lastly mingshu.. for marinating the chicken wings... nice wings... and aso not 4getting kelvin... haha.. thx for coming too...
erm... one more thing is that... wt nv come... i dunno why..maybe... maybe... i really dunno why.. actually i hope to see him again... frenz again ... but i doubt got tis chance bah... i ald mentally prepared..but then... yupp... haha..nvm lah...life is always like tis... the more u want it..but it is even harder to get it... haha... when have it... u dun treasure it... and lose it...haha....
Friday, September 09, 2005
暧昧让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据何时该前进 何时该放弃连拥抱都没有勇气只能陪你到这里毕竟有些事不可以超过了友情 还得不到爱情远方就要下雨的风景到底该不该哭泣想太多 是我还是你我很不服气 也开始怀疑眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你暧昧让人受尽委屈找不到相爱的证据何时该前进何时该放弃连拥抱都没有勇气暧昧让人变得贪心直到等待失去意义无奈我和你写不出结局放遗憾的美丽停在这里 i must not let history repeat itself again...but i love u...
Saturday, September 03, 2005
"Nothing hurts more than realising he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him. "
Friday, September 02, 2005
If in this lifetime, I wont get to have you,
I'll make sure that if I meet you in my next life
I wont have to think twice on saying that "I waited a lifetime to say I love you
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye.
A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe ...forever
Just the thought of being with you tomorrow, is enough to get me through today....
i'm sick... i'm dumb...haha...haiz...
Thursday, September 01, 2005
whoa well i might as well face it cause it is true ! yes, i've fallen i love with you...but i really hate this feeling... i just dun wan this thing going inside me... i hate it!!! understand.... haiz.... set me free.... cannot rewind reality Once the tape's unrolled ....