{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness
{fellows}

cheryl}
 emily}
 Shihui}
 yahui}
 weiren}
 chee wee}
 fira}
 sulin}
 daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 Afianne
 Blogskins.com
 Kakii.com
 Miss M
 44suburbia
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{bygone}

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Friday, April 28, 2006

Today quite screwed up... but managed to do bah... not that sucessfully...
i wan to thanks eunice and shila and wendy..for being so nice and helpful...thank u so much appreciate it...
and today is my big boss and is also joanna's b'day... happy B'day again !
erm..tomorrow going to see him again... i dunno how shld i feel? happy becoz i see him again..or depress becoz i can't let go after seeing him... darn it... haiz... love someone... is so... i dunno...

11:38 PM;

Thursday, April 27, 2006

today got in office quite late.. coz..everyone was late again..and i dun get to see that mister dracula (currently my only motivation to go for work haha..i'm just merely kiddin.. my motivation for work... i dun haf one..haha)
lunch was delicious maybe becoz i'm real hungry...very hungry.. and alan very cute lah.. he was discussing abt his gerfren... actually... in my opinion...no matter how u find good or bad ur gf/bf is... u still love her/him as who she/he is bah... i dunno.. i'm naive bah... no one is alike..no one is always perfect..but love is abt accepting and accomodating with each other and no regrets doing so... sounds wei da... i dunno whether i can do it anot... but i will definitely not lose my love if i ever have it someday... crossed my fingers..lol...
lst half of the day i'm busy... but then 2nd half...i was slacking and praying for the shipment documents to come in asap...if not i'm going nuts tml... luckily..it came in the very last min... hoho... and poor wendy gotta stay back to handle it..
ya.. met the dragon ball guy again... he look the same everyday.. and i wonder why...haha... but
he look pretty cool...
wad i've learnt today... be patient and wait... there are many things that we can't control... and that include love..work... fate... perhaps... i can master the patience that i nv have within this 2 mths... haha... this work is all abt waiting... and my love... i've been waiting..lol...
jus now online... he came and chatted wif me... feeling quite guilty...i promised myself not to tok to him anymore..yet... i broke my own words...hate tis man... haiz... why can't i jus let go... why can't jus i.... I mus forget... i mus...

10:00 PM;

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

ystdy jus heard from joanna, weiting is in army now... see how time flies... i aso dunno wad to say aso... jus wish him all the best... hopefully we can meet someday... see got fate anot bah..lol
morning as usual give cheryl and alan morning call...( doing morning calls practically everyday..perhaps i shld work in a hotel) ... alan very fun to be wif..but then i aso dunno... he toks very real stuff... sensible stuff...i aso dunno lah....but then he always say wan to hit me... if not ask me to kiss his ass...very lame ass .... then the whole afternoon... learnt how to handle the documents and stuff... making stupid faces to joanna.. but then we changed our place in the evening.. can't play with her liao..
i learn to be more patient rite now.. due to the insufficient workload lol... so yup...been staring in the air... looking at diff ppl... and yup not forgetting... in morning..met the mister dracula... i shld say he is very very gorgeous... he is like the main attraction at the lift lobby...everyone was looking at him..but i guess he is not english..but rather a german..or smth... jus so charming lah... but he looks like a vampire...haha.. anyway...yup..shld be seeing him again tml.. coz we are always late for work...then always see him at the lift lobby.... and this is also the lst time of my life... i've been late for 5 days consecutively...becoz got 6 of us mah mus wait together...especially got alan.... hee.. is fun to have frens to work wif..but then ya..i miss going out with my frens... haiz... i miss many things..but yup mus learn to let go... tml is gonna be tough..coz i've to handle it all alone... wish me luck..
i dunno why.. body and my soul is aching.. my heart hurts alot... try not to think..let go..like wad many frens say so... mus stop thinking liao.. yup.. my life very full but yet so empty inside... i dunno... i've to let go..yet i miss him so... like wad joanna always say "wad the shit".... haha... miss him so...

10:38 PM;

Monday, April 24, 2006

i miss him... i dun wish to stop loving him... but i've to...
i dunno wad to say..
i wish u can jus say u love me too..
but from now onwards..i gotta erase u from my memories...
i'm feeling very miserable...
it really hurts...

9:38 PM;

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Why Does The Wind Blow
Why Does The Sun Shin
eWhy Does The Rain Fall Down On My Face
Why Does The Earth Spin
Why Do The Waters Reach The Shore
And Tell Me Tell Me Why
Why Do I Love You Like I Do

2:38 AM;

Monday, April 17, 2006

my lst time watching movie with him...
movie title "take the lead'....
i like the way he touches my head
wish time could stop at that point of time...
time will nv move on... i will nv 4get today...
but i noe
it doesn't mean anything to him
sometimes i wish he could love me like the way i love him....


I like tis song"fascination" sang by nat cole king..
it was one of the movie soundtrack....

It was fascination
I knowAnd it might have ended
Right then, at the start
Just a passing glance
Just a brief romance
And I might have gone
On my way
Empty hearted

10:01 PM;

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

y does don tinks i like terence...and y does terence tinks i like don...
ok..i like terence..
y can't it be simple.. be the ger terence likes...and get together...
y mus it be so wrong....ending up... me banging against a wall again...
seriously..wad have i done in my pastlife to get all tis...
maybe i have hurt lots of ppl heart...
lol.. tis life to get my retribution
i jus wan to fall in love wif someone i love..iszit too hard to fulfill... y mus it be so...wrong..

12:38 PM;

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

basically today...went out wif weiren , chee wee and terence.... my lst outing wif them..lol..went to bugis and sat there at the food court..chitchat... then went to the temple nearby pray pray...
and terence kanna birdshit...lucky man..congrats..
i dunno...rite now.. i'm feeling very weird... chat wif don... he is still very nice...answering all my doubts.... i asked him...if we nv met, how would our life be like? would we be happier?
don could straightaway told me.. "abit bah"...asked y, he said " becoz SIP would be boring"... see he can ans me straightaway... y mao can't do it... kept kiddin wif me... why everyone can give me an exact ans...but not u ...wad's wrong wif u man...
i really duno... i like him and i wish we can be... i dunno... haiz...

11:38 PM;

Monday, April 10, 2006

if everything is fated..
why do i have to miss someone that is not supposed to be in my life
If everything is fated..
then why do i still fall for someone that will not fall for me...
if everything is fated...
does that mean wadever i'm doing right now is my destiny...

seriously
i dun understand.. i need a piece of mind...

where are u ? shld i let go?

12:38 PM;

Thursday, April 06, 2006

basically... i can say everyday happen different stuff... and is so extreme u noe...one day u were so happy and hoping everything could be that way... but on nxt day.. things changed... ppl getting on ur nerves..boom... every happiness u had experienced ystdy....boomba.. jus gone...
ystdy i was so happy...over the moon..... over the sun, over the mars....oki..practically over the whole galaxy... he asked me to join him and weiren for sakae... but yes..very dumbass me... did very dumb things...turn him dwn... i mean... actually.. i tink he find it awkard to have 2 guyz eating together... i mean..yeah..i very happy... shld be overjoyed...but wad can i say... i still turn him down... wad's wrong with me...
then later tis evening, i was accused many things..that i nv done b4.... i was screwed.... and i hate it... VERY TERRIBLE...JUS KILL ME.. I HATE TO BE ACCUSED...
THEN i received a sms by someone... and i shall not mention any name...but honestly she getting on my NERVES.... lst she asked me to help her email... so i said ok... then i told i help her..but b4 that... u noe how many smses i send to her...and its are the same smses containing same msges... all becoz she can't read those texts... very u noe... then i tink becoz... of the words limits and stuff... so i stayed chill.. . . ask her to send me her resume to me....so i guai guai go online...wait for her....tonite...then... she gave me call..." i very tired...can send other days..blah blah blah"...then i was already half frustrated..then ok.. i considered that she went out the whole day... so a very understanding me... i said... nxt week bah... is alrite...then she ask another requests.. a request that i can't help....which is accompany her to the interview...honestly..the place is far... i went there for many times le... and i really dun wan to see my agent... not becoz she is wad..but she is too nice... so paiseh to reject her job offer many times...so yup... i'm not going....but is frustrating.. getting ON MY NERVES....i'm sorry...but yeah...
and rite now..he is not toking to me... i dunno y.... pls tok ...
fine lah..dun tok... then so be it... who am i ...shit..

11:38 PM;

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Every night I pray
I'll have you here someday
I'll count the stars tonight
And hope with all my might

And when I close my eyes
You'll be right by my side
If I could only have one wish
You'd be the girl whose lips I'd kiss
All my only dreams

And when I close my eyes
You'll be right by my side
If I could have just one request
Stay with me girl I confess
All my only dreams
Any waking hour it seems
I only have you in my dreams

All My Only Dreams
by The wonders

yeah very nice.. except for the girl part can change to boy...hee

11:38 PM;

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

congrats to all my frens who got into UNI... congrats man!!!!
thoes didn got in.. is alrite... somewhere and somehow, our fate and destiny already prepare liao..so yup..we will see how k...
today very happy..chat wif him..hee...yeah! i'm going to have very nice dream tonite..hee..hopefully everyday we can tok like tis...yeah!!!

11:38 PM;

Sunday, April 02, 2006

I dunno... i wish my brain can stop working ... i dun wish to cry.. pls pls pls..go away...
jus let go... give them ur blessing... be happy and keep on moving... i mus be happy.. stop crying mich ..

10:51 PM;

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