*loves:
*loathes:
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking
,
throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches
cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}
Friday, July 28, 2006
wah...tiring for the past 2 days...ystdy, treated sh dinner for her b'day lah..got a belated b'day small gift...hope she likes it... coz is a pair of bunny lah... i noe she is bunny to someone ..so yup...and ya..we went to tm ahjisan... lol..basically..she didn finish eating the meat lo... naughty ger... then order mochi.. then walked walked for awhile... and i bought many things actually... hee...candy shop concealer, blusher lah, facial foam...and not forgetting my new braun buffer purse..hehe..nice..i love it..... then end up my pocket got burned again...hehe...
then today at work was freaking busy... seriously i hate making phone calls now..esp making enquiry abt rates and schedules...lol.. so mahfun..but u got to noe more ppl lah... but then is frustrating when the info doesn tally... anyway.. i got my things done.. happy....
i tink i ate the most expensive fried kway tiao with my colleague...lol... 13 bucks... lol... actually not ex lah...considering i ate in hotel cafe and very big portion though and very nice actually...and i'm gonna try the hotel high class restaurant someday with rest.... then the pub... hehe
today got shock aso...ah mun..actually giggle in the phone... he sound like adam so scary... dunno why.. i got a strange feeling... anyway... yup...
then jus now went to orchard wif cheryl..have mos burger for our dinner...yummy...hehe... then went to meridian plaza as cheryl wan to get something... before we also went to centrepoint to walk walk... then we went in to mark and spencer... i tink i'm going to get the blouse there...but like a little too ex leh... around 69bucks... see how bah..
i like working when i got the pay..haha...
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
erm..wad can i say... days are so simple nowadays...all i'm worry abt is my work.. great..wad can i say... and yea...annabelle is so cool... i dunno.. she is from Holland..worked in air freight company for dunno how many yrs... totally no idea how sea freight works.. and she is in business development for sea freight in my company... love talking to her...though still sometimes dun really understand wad she is toking abt.... but she is like my idol now..lol...cool... lets pray and cross our fingers tml..for her.. tml is going to be battle for her i guess..
anyway..today esther treated the whole dept apple strudel and it really taste great..especially when you are sick and cold..coughing as like you got some lung problem... it jus taste so xin fu.. the xin fu feeling..hehe...
very tired... how abt u ?
how are u ? wad are doing nowadays? hope u r fine...
Monday, July 24, 2006
today...was so peaceful..except the crazy cheryl.. kept on giggling on the train..haha... loving it... the amara foodcourt thai cuisine nice leh... everyone shld try...
haha... to be a buyer or a freight forwarder.. definitely a buyer..lol..i dunoo lah... stress man.. i love there...but i wish to open up myself.. see which career betta suits me... lol...
anyway..ya..many noticed my new hair color..and style..it jus not me.. look so much wild... i duno...i miss my black hair now... haiz...
and yup..hui if u are reading this... Happy B'day !!!... so fast 20 yrs old liao.. hope u are always cute and silly... then may u and ur swanny can grow togther k.. i noe that ur wish..hehe..
gd nite (*oo*)...
Sunday, July 23, 2006
You're my past, my future
My all, my everything
My six in the morning when the clock rings
And I open up my eyes to a new day
My laughs, my frowns
My ups, my downs
It's a feeling that you get
When you know that something's true
When I think of love I think of you
I'm looking at you while you're sleeping here beside me,
Oh, mere words can't explain the love
I have inside Its more than just a physical thing,
I know Its something like spiritual connection
I feel it in my soul, heart and mind
The sweetest thing is what you are
From you I'll never be to far,
Please say forever you will stay beside me
haha.. dun be afraid.. i'm not in love...is jus a song by lee ryan..title" when i tink of you"...i fell in love with this song...straight after i listened to it... gosh..it is jus so swt...hehe... i dunno wad abt the rest...but is definitely nice...
anyway... huimin is so nice... she is the only one that said i shld have fight for my fate.. meaning terence lah... perhaps she said that becoz not to be make me feel sad bah... afterall.. i'm just a fat and ugly-looking freak ..lol... how to fight... haiz... anyway..jus stay tis way bah...
and yup..today went to highlight my hair...trimmed abit.. eh... i find it ok lo...then get my eyebrows trimmed too.. look much neater..haha...
the salon was pretty cool.. the interior and exterior ..and aso the special hair heater thingy . and they got a special hairdresser... she or he is a ..yup..hope u can get wad i mean... but she/he definitely got a pair of nice legs ..and her /his is so much betta than mine... lol... i'm a normal ger..yet i was such a disappointment compare to him/her...
anyway..yea got my hair highlighted..nxt i will heading to a doc... to seek help wif my looks and body...seriously need some revamp..
lol... gd nite to whoever is reading tis...yesh!
You're my past, my future
My all, my everything
My six in the morning when the clock rings
And I open up my eyes to a new day
My laughs, my frowns
My ups, my downs
It's a feeling that you get
When you know that something's true
When I think of love I think of you
I'm looking at you while you're sleeping here beside me,
Oh, mere words can't explain the love
I have inside Its more than just a physical thing,
I know Its something like spiritual connection
I feel it in my soul, heart and mind
The sweetest thing is what you are
From you I'll never be to far,
Please say forever you will stay beside me
haha.. dun be afraid.. i'm not in love...is jus a song by lee ryan..title" when i tink of you"...i fell in love with this song...straight after i listened to it... gosh..it is jus so swt...hehe... i dunno wad abt the rest...but is definitely nice...
anyway... huimin is so nice... she is the only one that said i shld have fight for my fate.. meaning terence lah... perhaps she said that becoz not to be make me feel sad bah... afterall.. i'm just a fat and ugly-looking freak ..lol... how to fight... haiz... anyway..jus stay tis way bah...
and yup..today went to highlight my hair...trimmed abit.. eh... i find it ok lo...then get my eyebrows trimmed too.. look much neater..haha...
the salon was pretty cool.. the interior and exterior ..and aso the special hair heater thingy . and they got a special hairdresser... she or he is a ..yup..hope u can get wad i mean... but she/he definitely got a pair of nice legs ..and her /his is so much betta than mine... lol... i'm a normal ger..yet i was such a disappointment compare to him/her...
anyway..yea got my hair highlighted..nxt i will heading to a doc... to seek help wif my looks and body...seriously need some revamp..
lol... gd nite to whoever is reading tis...yesh!
Friday, July 21, 2006
busy busy busy lately...
no life..haha.. but actually not bad... at least i got something to keep mysel occupied... was really pessimistic previously in everything i'm doing... sometimes in life, you will reach the pit of the well...but then if you survive from it... rem you will nv one to go into that pit anymore...
eh.... i learnt to talk to my business development manager today.. annabelle.. u mus be tinking wad the hell ! learn to talk.. wad am i talking... haha... it was becoz my boss was on urgent leave..then i've to speak to annabelle personally... regarding my customer...
basically she is a foreigner.. a caucasian... and previously trying real hard to understand wad is she talking abt..lol.. but now i can communicate with her... hehe.. real happy...and i like the way she speaks.. it was real cool sound like those DJ.
and i can also speak with a foreign accent... hahha.. real cool...
anyway, shu hui is very cute today and clumsy. like her very much.. a very truthful, cute, swt..and very reAl girl.. dun worry. I'm not a lesbian, just that she is so nice. wad can i say, she is my daughter mah. haha...
yea... i will very independent and always stay happy from today onwards. so Yup, i will keep a low profile, nobody will find me.. muahaha... except for some peeps excluding my colleagues...
and yup..another thing to share... today my office got the nestle chocolate sales...everyone was like buy ar buy ar buy like no need money xia..lol...
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
suan le.. i'm jus nobody...
who cares if i die or live...
I'm not going to appear in ur life anymore..
happy...
too tired..
no place to slp tonite..wad the hell...haha
one last cry..i dun wan to cry anymore
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
Sunday, July 16, 2006
today went out wif my ah ma... and my little bro wif a tour group... basically the whole group is ah Mas... and aunties... lol... and my little bro is the only man.. if not consider the bus driver uncle and the tour group boss... and yup... i know... i'm among the aunties....lol...
to my amaze...they were discussing abt me...lol.. so farnie... wad can i say.. they were very nice old ladies actually... very lively... and there were 2 tour guides...both were also aunties... they were even higher... they sang... joked very vulgarly... lol.. wad can i say... old ginger is always betta... but they sang very well... and then it was like KBOX in a excursion bus...lol... except they only sang oldies, hokkien and chinese songs... then some of the aunties took turn to sing... lol
so the whole day ar..in the bus...is like free hokkien juke box liddat...lol.. got serious migraine after that... lol... then they also got this bingo game on the bus... very interesting though... u gotta get tis ticket of 3 bucks... then the tour guide will read out the number chosen...if all ur number in the ticket got chosen , u win lo... almost win lo... fun..quite addicted...
ya..places i went today..alot leh... veggie farm at lim chu kang, chinese medication factory lah ( and i spent 30 bucks in the medication factory, imagine that... all i bought were medication oil for my mama, ah ma...my bro...), then bah kau factory...temple then temple..then have lunch at the macpherson kopitam... then to jin long si temple... is a very interesting old temple...actually they have tis very old bodhi tree... 120 yrs old... they hope can be preserved it..as govt needs to acquire that piece of land...so now the temple officials are doing a petition... http://www.petitiononline.com/bodhi3/petition.html
so pls check out tis petition and support it... it is really very interesting old... i took a pic wif the old tree aso soon will upload... so to all nature lover or tree lover...pls support the petition....
if got another chance..sure join them...actually quite inspire me to be a tour guide..lol.. fun... esp wif those aunties... at least they were jus very nice ppl out there... wif no scheming plan..lol... u dun need email evidence to protect urself... freak...lol...
eh... i dun love ter like hell... Just say that I'm faithful lover...lol... i noe lah.. i will let go... perhaps
actually wad is love? to be wif someone... and hoping not to lose him/her on the journey... or wish that person be happy wif whoever he/she with... i seriously dunno...
rite now.. i jus wan to be happy and strong..coz i noe there is no one out there...lol..so yup...
feeling so much betta now..... i played reversi jus now...
feel like dancing now... haha
Saturday, July 15, 2006
i can't slp ystdy... stayed awake until 4am...
been crying...
i dunno... really on the verge to breakdown ..
jus realised in this world, there is no one for me...
i got no one to tok to....
no one understands wad exactly is goin on in my life...
perhaps no one realise that my existence i guess..
haha.... life...
so many things are on my mind...
i dunno... shld i kill myself?....
very tired le... to go or not to?....
somebody help me.....
Friday, July 14, 2006
haha...today is a nice day.... basically in my whole life...i was nv really so flattered b4....
my colleagues said i'm pretty today... so nice of them...guess this is my very time in my life..i feel pretty bah...haha...
during work , terrible... i aso lazy to describe..jus hope everything will be fine by monday... i aso dunno wad to say actually lah... pls pray for me...
after work was great...went out wif the MLog lucky 6.... actually is cheryl, alan, joanna, jos, ting ting and evon lah...we went to PS for ajisan ramen...food was so-so lah... but took alot of pics... hope i can get the pics soon... hehe..even took a video...they were all so high...
then we walked all the way to wisma.... shop here and there...looking for cosmetics..and perfume... and poor alan gotta carried his heavy bulk bags...and see us shop... basically, the gers love shopping... leaving me, alan and joanna so bored... haha...i dun deny i'm a ger..but i dun like to shop cosmetics lah.... prefer perfume only..hehe...
then walked here and there...until 10.30pm.... then decide to go home..... was hoping i can go into the pub...but then... i can't drink nowadays...serious migraine...dunno wad is going on inside me...
jus so empty inside...haha
Thursday, July 13, 2006
today very sick... got flu, headache...luckily siti saved me with a panadol pills...if not sure collapse in the office...nv in my whole life... so such a bad migraine......
guess the whole office...only me and michael...got bad headache bah..lol.. somehow me and him got something similar...both of us told cheryl...see that star in our company so sian... change to moon ... haha...so farnie... said the same things...
anyway...yup... i realised i'm quite "famous" person...becoz my haulier company big boss and big big boss are aware that i'm michelle..though they mistook cheryl as me at lst...haha
yup..mus be the ppl in there..tok abt me lah... honestly... wad is abt me? pls tell me? then that ah chia... so farnie.. i dunno wad to say lah..
but do terence tok abt me? does he miss me?
yup..i've try too hard...pls tell me wad can i do nxt...seriously..nth i can do...
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
frank told me... true frens dun find frens irritating...
mao finds me irritating...
wt afraid of me...
i dunno... there is nth for me to look forward ...
very sad... sometimes i tink i've completed my whole life journey...
shld stop here...too tired to tink....
frank asked me to get some counselloring...
i dun need that...
nobody understands me....
i nv look at negative side...
but it happen that it always looked at me...
if u wish to take away my life...
pls do it so...
dun play wif it...
hate it...
想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头承认自己会怕黑
我只求能借一点时间
来陪你却连同情都不给
想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界好像只有我疲惫
无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
天灰灰会不会让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违
累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎
夜越黑梦违背有谁来安慰我的世界
将被摧毁或许颓废也是另一种美
Monday, July 10, 2006
today..got serious headaches...and i'm still having it.... dunno... too tired i guess... very stress..been thinking whether i joined the rite co ... many many decisions to make...
chatted wif michael tis afternoon... i shld say maybe i'm lucki.. or i dunno... haiz... stress lah..
wish i can go back to sch and study...
haha... wad are u doing rite now?
Sunday, July 09, 2006
French - Je t'aime
German - Ich liebe Dich
Japanese - 私は愛する
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Korean - 나는 너를 사랑한다
Spanish - Te quiero
russian - Я люблю вас
dutch - Ik houd van u
Chinese - 我爱你
Friday, July 07, 2006
letting go of everything..
happy, aren't you?
I dun wan anything..
the more i wanted.. the more i will nv have...
so yup...
no love no hate..
i'm jus myself..
Thursday, July 06, 2006
eh...today so farnie... i saw uncle eric dozing off at his desk..haha...
he so farnie.. someone called and looking for michael... then he saw mic on the phone list... and almost transferred the call to me again...
after that.. he kept on..making fun of my surname... Michelle BOn lah..bom...bond lah..all sorts of name... even give me call me MIchelle Moey... coz michael's surname is moey...but i find moey is quite a unique surname... dun u tink so... actually michelle moey sound nice..haha..
Michael aso very poor thing today...look kinda ill... hopefully he is alright...
then today work as usual...but i'm working betta..hopefully i can get use to it...but i really like zoo-keeping... hope to work wif animals someday..afterall..i'm not those can sit in office for long long hrs...though i'm doing so everday...haha... i can't control fate..jus let it be.. i guess..
and yup..miss T alot... i dun wan to be stubborn anymore... haiz.. so i gotta let it go...
but i feel like getting him a tee.. i dunno.. jus got this feeling..jus like buying for him....weird rite...haha..
yesterday jus dreamt of him... he was together wif someone.. wif a ger he likes i guess.. or his gf...
all i can say.... he happy can le... yup...
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Haven't told you just how much I love you
Only by dreaming I show my feelings
Haven't told you just how much I love you
Time for revealing
And I will give you something too
A love from me to you
LOVE LIVES IN STRANGE PLACES
IT'S THE OBVIOUS THAT NEVER SHOWS
IT JUST MIGHT FIND YOU
WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW
UNTIL YOU JUST LET GO
haha...i'm going to apply business admin nxt yr...
i can't gif up studying ...
haha
Monday, July 03, 2006
sometimes..very puzzled.. i nv dump anyone b4... i nv rejected anyone.. i'm so harmless, alittle dumb, idiotic...but it doesn't really matters rite..
but why i do i always got rejected? why is acceptance so hard to find in my dictionary?
can somebody give me a gd ans...
i wish he can be by my side..
but a wish is always a wish...
Saturday, July 01, 2006
this is a very FUCking week, very stress... freaking work... freaking stress.....
nv been so stress in my whole life.. still having this serious migraine up till now..perhaps was the overnite crying... cry like i nv cry in my whole life...
for the whole week.. i didn nv really laugh already...
why ppl can't be more understanding...
ppl demand me to be here and there... i've to appease ppl here...then i made ppl there angry...
i can't always be there to appease ppl...
why do ppl approach me when they need help only... and if i can't help..ppl get angry...
wad the hell... I'm not born to please ppl... i'm willingly to help..but u have to understand, i got other circumstances to take inconsideration...
My whole world doesn't revolve around you....
why do ppl have to leave one by one...
why can't i just leave this place...is screwing me up...
i got no one to approach to.... i wish i can tok to someone...give me a pat/hug.... but no one is available for me... haha... basically... no one is there for me...haha...
very pessimistic... i wish i wasn't even living alive
I'm big so wad.. i'm not strong
i cry so easily now that i dunno why...
I hardly cry when i was young
.i'm really tired... so wad i'm young... to hell wif it...
very depressed.... I dun eat becoz i feel hungry... i eat for the sake of eating....
I laugh for the sake of laughing... i dun laugh from the bottom of my heart anymore...
and i miss him even more... i miss him even more when he ignored me...pleading in my heart
i keep making wrong decisions... i dun even there to make decisions now... i dunno wad is wrong and right decisions now... i dun wish to have regrets again...
now i'm left wif frank to tok to ....imagine..someone i always argue, quarrelled with me..haha... and he is there to listen to me ... not really listening... coz we were chatting on the net... Thx u so much..really appreciate.... but i guess u aso dun really care... haha...
who is there for me?
where shld i go?
which way to move?
i've got no idea....
someone pls give me an idea...
i'm lost...haha.... totally lost....
my heartbeat : _______________________________________________________
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
Know that I can't get over you
'Cause everything I see is you
And I don't want no substitute
Baby I swear it's Deja Vu
woohoo..i love you..haha