*loves:
*loathes:
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking
,
throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches
cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}
Saturday, October 22, 2005
It's amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but its sad when the best of friends become two strangers. I've never understood the reasoning for someone to "move on" from a relationship. It's not like you are really going to "move on", you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute of everyday until it finally becomes a routine and you don't notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, with someone who isn't you, and then you have to remind yourself again The worst feeling in the world is loving someone, when they don't love you back. Your heart aches every time you see him, knowing that no matter how deep you look into their eyes, trying to reach their heart, you never will.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
i'll do anything u wan..i'll do anything u wish...
sometimes i wish u can treat me better...like way u treat the ger u like..
if oni ... in reality that will nv happen....
haiz..
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
if I told you I love you, I'm only saying what's in my heart
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
i dun wan to find someone who drives a CRV to be my man...i wan u to be my CRV driver... stop asking me to find that someone...i wan u to be that someone.... be my driver ...
i wan u to be my CRV driver... understand.... but u will nv noe...
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
Friday, October 14, 2005
today same thing lo.. after work.. went up wif mao to the penthouse party...very nice view there...can see to the sea..and sunset...and is very high class there... my lst time to a penthouse... it will be a nice place to get engage...haha... jus thinking...
actually afternoon beside doing my research stuff... i was tinking smth esle... tinking of a person...wondering how is he...i wish i can tok to him..but i doubt so....and tinking y do all my guy frenz treat me like a guy.. do i really look like a guy? doesn't that mean... ok i admit i'm clumsy.. rough.. erm...not a ladylike..but then y... haiz... those guyz i liked, always treat me like a guy... haiz... actually is a very sad thing... my feeling was nv appreciated... in fact they will tink i will recover frm the rejection becoz i'm big... y other gers can be sad when they are rejected... while me... i'm not allow to be sad.... have to be so cheerful... have to be happy... i have to laugh when i'm rsad...
many ppl told me.. the time is not rite yet... the one will find me one day... i hope so... haha..hoping that for 18 yrs ald... haha... i'm not desperate for a bf... is jus that i hope someone will care for me , someone there for me when i'm sad... dun have to cry alone in the middle of the nite... i'm strong phyiscally but mentally i'm weak.. i have been lying for 18 yrs... lying to myself.... deep down inside me...
yes...i'm forunate.. i have alot of gd frenz... nice ppl..caring frenz...great personality....but they have their own things to do... i got a caring family... but i'm selfish... i'm idiotic... i dun wan to be alone to face everything...yes u may think i'm useless...i agreed with that...but i'm useless...
i jus merely need a shoulder to be there for me...
y do i like weiting.. becoz he treats me like a ger... haha.. but in fact he treats everyone liddat.. that was the only time.. i felt that i was treated like a ger... and becoz of my own misunderstanding...i lost a gd fren... a frenship... something that i will nv forget.... coz is still hurts....
for so many years, in my family... in sch.... i tink i'm like a guy... haiz..maybe i really shld go for a sex change
haha... i believe... after typing for so many things... i believe nobody reads it bah... except for 2 person bah...maybe that 2 person dun even have time to bother to read my blog.... i wrote it out not becoz i wan to get attention...but i jus need to say it out...hahaha...i'm going to burst...if u get to read, count urself lucki if u can read tis(jus kiddin lah no offence)...haha..coz not everyone gets to noe how i feel...hee...
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
haha...today mrs wee visited us..us=don+me+maomao... erm..she did surprised us...but we sort of expected lah...haha...and she is flying off soon...to korea...so gd xia...Mrs wee...enjoy ur holiday!! haf fun....
then we bring her arnd in the company...then show her our bosses... then we find our lom senior, isim( sorry ger..i dunno how to spell ur name)...she is a nice lady... haha... she told us abt fyp stuff blah blah... then mrs wee and she start to chat abt others ( seniors)..... most of them..i mean the ladies seniors...all married le...so envied... omg... they were like dunno few years older than us...but some of them ald got children le...envy...i aso wan to get marry..hahaha
then on the train... me and mao mao..were chatting abt our senior..then i said i envied them blah blah... haha... then he said i marry lo... then he said he dun haf any marriage plan... but he is aso rite lah...we are still young...haha... who is on the rite mind to tink abt that...so...i mus be on my left mind...haha..
but seriously, i dunno but i tink i like u....maybe it is love... maybe i really love u.....
Monday, October 10, 2005
I HATE U... I HATE MYSELF
Thursday, October 06, 2005
wo zhen de ai ni, wo zhi ai ni...wo xi wan he ni zai yi qi....
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
有的人說不清哪裡好 但就是谁都替代不了
Monday, October 03, 2005
i said i love u...will u believe me...