{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

i dunno..... my tears jus flow so easily.... i can cry so easily...i'm so lousy.... one of my fren told mi... love him by doing it discreetly... did i do anything to him? i didn even get to tok to him at all... all i did...was to express my feeling in my nickname... and it upset him... y do he need to be upset... it not even his purpose... i didn even tok to him online... i didn even tell him i still love him... i didn tell him daily that i love him.... i didn even do anything to him.....all becoz of my nick...i didn even make annoucement to everyone that i love him....wad i did to terence i didn even do it to him... i didn even put my msn nick as " I love wt" before.... y can't i jus express my sad feeling... so wad i'm sad... all u care is the pressure i'm giving u.... but did i pressure u b4? i'm not a robot... to let go... it is not easy...maybe i'm selfish... very selfish... i do everything frankly and directly..maybe i'm inflexible.... take it i'm fucking idiot and fuck off and u won't see me anymore... and since it upset u so much... i had blocked and deleted u from my msn already... u won't get to see it anymore... maybe in tis way , u will be happier.... but u jus hurt mi deeply... sometimes i jus hope u can jus stab my heart... kill me...haha...its not ur fault..i started everything... i swear i won't mention anything abt you anymore if not i will die straightaway... i'm alright... but it jus that my heart hurts... i dun wan to cry anymore... but i can't stop crying... it jus hurts... deeply...and thx frenz... i noe u all care... pls forgive mi...if i behaving strangely... i'm preventing myself from crying...

9:22 PM;

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