{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Wednesday, August 03, 2005

tis friday is coming... i dunno why... everything will be coming to an end... i can't wait... no more tears... no more sadness....the blame is on me... if i nv see him... nth will happen... i shld choose to study somewhere... but wadever iszit...tis friday is coming...i'm leaving...somewhere peaceful...hopefully....maybe i dun even noe where i will be.... to somewhere...i can have a peace of mind...
i'm happy in the day and i'm sad in the nitez... i'm happy wif mao mao in the day... during nite i'm sad when i tink abt that....if oni i met him earlier...maybe today won't be like tis..... maybe i won't be so sad rite... he accepted my frankness and directness and we are still gd frenz.... very gd frenz.... he accepted my dumbness and stupidity...he is still my fren... my gd fren... friend 4ever... no i should not compare him wif him...he is different.... he is not mao mao... the blame is on me... i killed my own heart.... i hurt myself...... is all my fault... i dun wan to end in tis way...
why does it hurt me so? killing myself anot... is not his biz anyway.... lol...so... life is short and miserable... maybe shorten it would be betta...lol.... isn't it... but then i won't kill myself... i jus wan to end my sufferings...lol... i have to be happy... and cannot sad anymore... friday is coming... how do i end my suffering...haha... ppl ask mi wad suffering... the pain inside my heart...jus hurts so much..is so unbearable...... haha..... i noe many ppl dun understand... y i can't understand... i understood long ago... is my fault... is all on me... but i realised something... i nv wanted anything from him... and i hurt him becoz of my frank and directness...pressure him... but is not the matter anymore.... he won't have to stress abt tis anymore.... i hereby shall declare... wt is no longer my fren.... do i have to be so extreme... lol... i noe..we reached a pt whereby ...we ald no longer frenz le... is all my fault....it can't be salvage anymore...ok lah...enough le...

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