{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

i'm tired...
i'm exhausted..
please...i beg..anyone up there...
have mercy on me...
i want to cry.. but i can't...
i want the pain from my heart to go away...
i want to run...but i can't...
i want to leave..but i can't...
i want to die..but i can't...
i want to slp...but i can't...
i want to rest...but i can't...
please take me away...i need a peace of mind..

ppl ask me why do i read jokes from the net..
i lied becoz i'm bored...but as a matter of fact... i'm sad...very sad..
depressed
but does anyone understand me?
ans is clear, nobody...i'm used to it....
haha.... i dun even understand me..
i dunno..
i have been planning..how to die..
but i dun wan to do it... i can't leave the things i love...
can't jus leave ....
but i'm on the verge... i'm going crazy...
i'm lying to everyone.. i'm not happy... i'm crying when i laughed...
been wearing a mask for very long time...
i'm leaving very soon...
one more..
jus one more..
time's up very soon...
i jus gotta wait....

10:40 PM;

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