{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness
{fellows}

cheryl}
 emily}
 Shihui}
 yahui}
 weiren}
 chee wee}
 fira}
 sulin}
 daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 Afianne
 Blogskins.com
 Kakii.com
 Miss M
 44suburbia
 Foto Decadent
 
{bygone}

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Saturday, December 31, 2005

wah wah wah... today 31 dec 2005, last day of 2005.....whoa ... how time flies...i have learnt many many many many new things... i shall say i'm enlightened... now is time for me to tink back wad i have done
erm... let talk abt my love life..this year ..i can say..nth big accomplished...lol... but is ok... i can say... tis year, the tears' that i shed..can weight up to a few litres bah...( if my tears are my fats..wouldnt that be nice, i can shed alot kilos liao) 19 yrs in this beautiful planet called earth... i'm still alone..haha... tink slowly gettin used to it liao..though always wan cheryl to accompany to places... erm... i haven really get to tok to weiting after the incident happened in 2004...one year liao.. so fast... i aso don't wad to say actually... asked me if i still likes him... i aso dunno...i still keep the lst thing he gave me..which is a pen (is a memorable)... i dun wan to throw it away... i just sincerely hope he is happy now...hopefully both of us can 4get everything and be fren again... cheers... waiting for the day to come... though that is kind of impossible...but nth is impossible as i say...so hopefully..ten years / twenty years/ thirty years/forty years / fifty years down the road, hopefully we still rem each other and met each other one day, we can say hi again.... cheers...weiting, i'm sorry for everything... jus be happy k...
then god very nice to me... let me know alot of new frenz this year, cheryl, lihui..blah blah blah... then i met tis stupid dumb fella... fell for him... but i learnt my lesson from weiting..dun do dumb things and ruined a frenship... ok i lied..i admitted..i did my confession to him..but i tink he dun take my words seriously.. which i tink forunately lah... at least we dun end up like weiting... qns, why i fell in love wif him...haha... ok..he is bad, gayish sometimes, stingy sometimes..break his promises .erm, greedy sometimes,always scold and suan me , ignored me often... but actually he is nice lah, clever, at least he is funny... maybe becoz i knew him abt 1 year and 6 months plus liao... almost 2 years... get use to his style le bah... and concidentally.... he gave pens aso this year... the lst things he gave me.. similarily like weiting..both almost finished their pen ink then give it to me... dunno y ... do i look like a bin..haha... anyway.. he is different from weiting... weiting treats me like a woman.. while he treats me like a man... then y did i love him? duno... the feeling jus gradually developed... maybe see him everyday... always stick wif him ...use to it le bah... kind of weird when he not around...
then god still treat me very nice... SIP still go work wif him... and then i get to noe tis guy by the name of Don... erm... he is aso very nice.. but pretty gd at suanning me... but he is the lst guy to ask me to find a bf.... he is the lst one... hahaha... no one in my whole life actually ask me to look for bf (maybe becoz i'm ugly, that's y nobody ask me to do that)..he is the lst one..weird rite... then he said no ugly gers only got lazy ger ..haha... then that guy aso agree wif don... haha...then recently lihui aso say that..... they are all wrong... there are still ugly gers... one gd example..that's me..lol... a crow can nv be a swan....
back to don... he said i shld take initiative blah blah...nv fall in love wif ur buddy blah blah blah... i agree wif him.. but i told i took initiative.. and things always ended pretty badly...haha.. maybe fated de bah... he is really nice guy... jus like a big bro..actually i like him like a bro.. but he always suan me.. but i tink he aso suan reasonably bah....
SIP though is not fun and tiring, always complain ..hope it can end faster..but deep inside my heart i noe i enjoyed that period... wif don and him around.... and i learnt new things.. office job is really dulll.... but tis is life...we will have times that are dull.. times that are colorful... everything happens for a reason...
now back in sch, still wif him do project but we got new companions, lihui, shalene, cheryl and alan..very fun... though is a stressful period... and lately ( i mean last few weeks)... been very depressed becoz of certain things... the projects lah.. n some heart matters..... ask me now if i still like that stupid dumb gayish fella... lol... ans is in my heart.... but i aso understand one thing.. if u love that person, u accept that person's flaws... u hope he is happy with the person he loves and things that he likes... so i jus hope he can be happy... and i'm also a loyal fren... i love all my frenz, i hope i can help to be happy aso... ppl ask me why i'm so nice to them... my intentions are simple.. i wan them to be happy... nth more than that... sound like very noble... haha.. actually i'm not proving i'm noble... i tink becoz when a person is sad.. the only thing another person can do is be there for him/ her and help her ...like cheryl , shihui and william, sulin, emily and amelia, and lihui's encouraging words and those i 4get to mention here.. they are there for me... i'm touched guyz..thx u for all ur supports... love u all....
sometimes, i really dun understand things, he can be very nice to me...then change his attitude to me in another sec... actually i envied thoes gers whom he likes... he always so nice to them... to bad i'm not them...maybe for the one last time in here in this small small blog of mine, last day of year 2005, i wan to say to u for the last time...
Mao mao, i Love u ...and i really do. and i will be there if u need help

and cheryl, if u r still reading tis..tink i shld make a public apology to u here... i'm sorry ,sorry for the previous misunderstandings... sorry to cause u distress aso... i dunno... tink i'm jus too sensative.... but rem nth is impossible. Time will tell..Sorry ! *muack* and i promise u i will always be ur "knight in shining armour" to protect u from all the cats till the day u met ur prince in that shining armour... so dun worry.... *muack*

and hui, now u got ur darling... i'm so happy for u... i hope u and him will be 4ever.. waiting for ur wedding dinner cards...thx for being there for me.. love ya.. cheers!

this year aso consider my last year of poly life... erm..soon be into the working world..hopefully i can survive in this big big big world..
this year aso a wonderful year... many many gd things happen too... but i dun seem to rem..maybe becoz those sad things are more memorable...
and one of the wonderful thing is the KL field trip, very fun... the hotel stay... so fun.. i will definiately miss u all...
and my cloud... thx u ... i like ur encouraging words..but problem lies wif me.. haha...

overall, 05 is a average year for me... with lot of tears...lol... but anyway..i grow up liao.. so cannot cry so easily... yeah....
To all ppl out there... wish u all A Happy Happy Happy Happy happy NEw YEAR ! yeah! no more tears, may everyone can live happily ever after...yam seng!!!!

6:00 PM;

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