{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Friday, March 31, 2006

ystdy went to alan's b'day party.. at downtown east.. was fun..many ppl was there... ppl i have known..and aso ppl i dunno..
cheryl was there.. he was there very cute wif his new hairstyle though...
i dunno wad shld i say .... was very very very happy to see him again..lots to say but just dun wan to say anything...coz i just dun wan to have the feeling back....and perhaps he aso has nth to say to me aso bah... y shld i always be the one toking lst and waiting for u to ignore me.. .. am i that annoying... perhaps i am....
sometimes i'm really really very happy..he rems things that i said.... but he aso rems wad other said too.. hence nth great to happy so...haha
i noe i very dumbass... and recently i kept imagine my hp rang or someone is calling my name...but actually no one calls or call my name...and ystdy actually i aso dunno whether am i halluncinating or something during the party... i was changing my t-shirt in the toilet..of coz wif my toliet door closed and locked... cheryl and the rest in room watching tv... while changing, i heard he saying " wait a min, michelle is missing !"... i noe yes while u are reading this, u must be saying mich "go see a doc..lol.. u r having seriously halluncination problems...lol..downtown east chalet how big can it be, how can a person go missing"... i agreed wif u though... haiz...yeah i'm so dead..now that i'm having serious imaginative problem...but it would be nice..he really cares that i'm missing..haha.. but who will not... i care any of my frens aso missing..haha.. so yup..no big deal... and most importantly i need a doc... probably a psychatrist would be betta...but is ex..haha
perhaps giving up somethings that aren't for me... will be better..
perhaps i shldn't be holding on so tight. been constantly reminding myself, it has got to be an equal thing... 2 way traffic... usually i am those kanna knocked down by the oncoming traffic... so wad can i say...
i was surfing the net and i found a prose..quite interesting abt giving up...wan to share it here..it goes like this :
I'm giving up on lovingyou
I cant take the pain you've put me through
Deep down I know the feelings are always there
Maybe someday you will care
At least for now I can hide my pain
I know if I dont, I'll go insane
Our time apart has made me realize
There is no second chance when it comes to guys
I almost had you back one time
But of course, you changed your mind
The many excuses that you have told
Are getting lame and really old
We never talk anymore
Its like a room to ur life and you've slammed the door
It hurts to know you've shut me out
Now I know wut love is all about
You're happy then you cry and cry
Where there was truth becomes all lies
All in all it never ends for good
But then again, who thought it would?

perhaps the person was very sad and disappointed bah... hopefully she would get over..

11:30 PM;

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