{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

this is a very FUCking week, very stress... freaking work... freaking stress.....
nv been so stress in my whole life.. still having this serious migraine up till now..perhaps was the overnite crying... cry like i nv cry in my whole life...
for the whole week.. i didn nv really laugh already...
why ppl can't be more understanding...
ppl demand me to be here and there... i've to appease ppl here...then i made ppl there angry...
i can't always be there to appease ppl...
why do ppl approach me when they need help only... and if i can't help..ppl get angry...
wad the hell... I'm not born to please ppl... i'm willingly to help..but u have to understand, i got other circumstances to take inconsideration...
My whole world doesn't revolve around you....
why do ppl have to leave one by one...
why can't i just leave this place...is screwing me up...
i got no one to approach to.... i wish i can tok to someone...give me a pat/hug.... but no one is available for me... haha... basically... no one is there for me...haha...
very pessimistic... i wish i wasn't even living alive
I'm big so wad.. i'm not strong
i cry so easily now that i dunno why...
I hardly cry when i was young

.i'm really tired... so wad i'm young... to hell wif it...
very depressed.... I dun eat becoz i feel hungry... i eat for the sake of eating....
I laugh for the sake of laughing... i dun laugh from the bottom of my heart anymore...
and i miss him even more... i miss him even more when he ignored me...pleading in my heart
i keep making wrong decisions... i dun even there to make decisions now... i dunno wad is wrong and right decisions now... i dun wish to have regrets again...
now i'm left wif frank to tok to ....imagine..someone i always argue, quarrelled with me..haha... and he is there to listen to me ... not really listening... coz we were chatting on the net... Thx u so much..really appreciate.... but i guess u aso dun really care... haha...

who is there for me?
where shld i go?
which way to move?
i've got no idea....
someone pls give me an idea...
i'm lost...haha.... totally lost....

my heartbeat : _______________________________________________________

6:22 PM;

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