{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness
{fellows}

cheryl}
 emily}
 Shihui}
 yahui}
 weiren}
 chee wee}
 fira}
 sulin}
 daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 Afianne
 Blogskins.com
 Kakii.com
 Miss M
 44suburbia
 Foto Decadent
 
{bygone}

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Saturday, August 26, 2006

i'm not mad abt him..
i'm not crazy abt him...
i'm not hoping anything from him...

do i still miss him?
yes, i do.
he is in my heart.
but i hope he can feel it too.

I know it is very silly to make oneself feeling so miserable.
I don't enjoy that too.
Nobody wants to make themselves feel this way.
I nv wanted to feel this way.
It's pathetic.
It was as if your heart is gonna crack into many pieces.
Sometimes, I rather someone could like stab it and let it die.
and until now, it is still aching.
I don't want to be this way.

I know you might be thinking,
what the hell is mich thinking? Is she a nutcase or something
He is not someone whom is so wonderful.
I'm not someone perfect, I don't what are the rights and wrongs in love.
Many say hey u shldn be doing this and that, the rule of love is this and that...blah blah blah
I know they meant well, I shld know
There are many things that are not without control
But love is not a game, it is not abiding the rules or not
I'm not someone that are perfect for love.
Frank and cheryl are rite, I shld wake up.
who are you to tok abt love.
someone freaking ugly, fat, annoying.

But i swear i Nv hope anything,
Nv have a thought of hoping...
perhaps in my dream...

I can't find the reason on why i still miss him
neither do i can tell you the reason on why I still love him.
In fact I don't know what is love.

Guess like what many ppl say time will fade many things.
isn't that true?
not to worry, i won't contact him anymore.
In fact, I won't contact many ppl also.
Hopefully, this pathetic Mich will fade away someday.
and there will not be any Mich's existence.

dear frens in reading, though only a few of you reading..haha
appreciate your understanding
Know you all meant well
i nv takes things too hard...
becoz like i was said, there is nth for me to hold on, how to let go
lol.. dun worry...
i'll be fine.
will be disappearing for quite sometimes if my plan goes well
perhaps someday, down the road, you found someone familar
happy smiling..lol.. it's me...
and ya please forgive me for deleting my frenster acc.
You guyz will always be my fren... gd gd fren.
frens shld be kept in our heart. isn't it..

Found a job recruitment.
is abt about frequent travel to overseas.
it's time to keep myself occupy with something.
wish me luck. hopefully.

Takecare everyone.
gd nitez.
appreciate you to finish reading my today entry.
yea. getting long-winded.
ya. miss all of you.
nitez.

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