{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Friday, September 01, 2006

today went out during office hour wif annabelle to my clients company..
reached there early...and freaking me actually left the cheque at my desk
...haiz.. it was opened up my horizon...
after visiting my customers...chatting wif anna in the cab...it was amazing we actually chatted
i mean i was pretty nervous toking to her..
as she is a angmoh.. and she speaks real well..
very admire her capability and her courage
she left her homeland during her uni vacation for overseas temp job..
and went to south africa for internship
went to so many parts of the world.. nv afraid of anything.. language barrier.. and culture and stuff...
she is real cool.. and she asked me to go out and see the world
coz i will learn more.. nv fear of going out of singapore to work..
she aso said...once u left sin, u will appreciate wadever singapore has..
dun tell anyone.. dun be afraid and go for it..
was so inspired by her words..
she is definitely very very very capable lady.. wad can i say..
she is pretty, elegant.. and funny at times..
she admitted that she might be a ang moh..but she very local ang moh..
i wish i can be like her... haha.. but mus wait liao lo..haha

compare her to me....
she is like flower blooming...
and me like a piece of shit on the ground.. i'm so weakling...
wad can i say.. haiz..
so if i got the opportunity, i'm heading out...

actually i've some kind of dilemma..
i dunno wad to say..
jus so tired..
really hope to have a long slp
before i start a new journey...
4get the past and look forward to the future..

after work , went to tm..wif cheryl...
ate mos burger again.. haiz..
i dun wan to eat.. nv feel like eating..
my stomach like so bloated.. i dun understand y..
i dun feel like eating...

anyway..she is on the topic of having baby..
she wanted to have baby..
and as for me.. perhaps few months ago..
i still was hoping to start a family and have babies..

but rite now, i dun tink i will ever want..
i tink its unfair to bring another person to a world like this..
it is a sad thing..
i dun wan to have a baby or start a family becoz i dun wan to grow old alone..
it is very selfish.. just becoz u dun wan to grow old alone, u start a family..

perhaps it is a weird way to think liddat...
but it got cheryl pissed off..
then she asked me a "if" qn...lol..
she asked me if i got drunk one day.. and got pregnant...
will i go for abortion...
funny qn..isn't it
i kept telling her it is impossible.. i will nv get pregnant...lol..
she got pissed off again...
for someone that once scolded me why i always asked silly qn..lol.. and now
she asking me...
sometimes i dun understand y does she got pissed off so easily...
she is quite demanding sometimes.. i dun understand y...she wasn't like this in the past...
perhaps everyone changes... just like me.. cheryl said i became very quiet always sound so.depressing..lol.. i dunno.. perhaps i was... esp one whole day work... lol
everyone can see other weakness, why can't oneself see their own weakness...
life is so farnie...

everyone has their own mindset..
and perhaps everyone has a reason behind it...
be it is positive or negative.. is up to person to agree upon..
i dunno...
i hope i can either have a long break if not i feel like quiting le.. i need a break...
i need to see wadesle i can do..
actually doing volunteer work in south africa aso not bad....
i will see how time goes...anyway.. ya... one person.. easy come easy go mah..lol

11:55 AM;

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