{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Sunday, October 01, 2006

last week was a week of ups and downs...
still very busy in office..doubt there will any changes for this coming.. very busy..not that i'm bullshiting...but it is like war-place for me..
then came the news that my granduncle passed away on friday nite... was real sad for him... afterall for the past few mths he was suffering... so tormented by the sickness, his life problems and many problems i guess he encountered.... my impression of him when i was still a child was like, he is very capable, always combed his hair, will take note of his appearance, guess he was aso charmer when he was young ... but he had many 3 wives.... his lst wife, my lst grandaunty was a nice lady, very gentle, and she looked abit eurasian..and always calls me hamburger..coz i was round and chubby when i'm young... and i remembered attending their christmas party at their factory or warehse place...it was like a huge place...so many containers... they made into office or something.. i aso dun rem that well... but lst grandaunty passed away quite early..so memories start to blur already..
and yup..i went to attend his funeral wake ysdty , stayed there till 10+..... actually was quite shocked when i lst went there... he was a catholics...so his funeral wake was held in a catholic church centre...my papa parked his car at the carpark then we went up the stairs to the centre hall... i was like so stunned when i reached that place..coz i saw many coffins laying there, covered by cloths..i was so shocked... very very very stunned. i mean i nv see covered coffins, i was imagine things... like zombies..haha... i noe my imagination ran wild..lol.. i was like i wan to carry my ah gong and run coz my ah gong walks real slow..he can't walk for too long..but he can cycle...lol... i noe..ya..very ignorant of me.. basically the coffins are all empty...my uncle bluffed me... but was really shocking...
anyway... went in to the centre hall quickly, pay my respects to granduncle.. and took a look at him lying in the coffin... feel very sad that time, almost wan to cry liao..when suddenly my ah ma actually cried and very loudly... she was really sad... i guess.. is that life is so short... and she feels sad for my granduncle that his life has ended in this way... wad can i say, i tink last august, i just met him at his place, he was alive, still chatting... but ystdy i saw him, laying in coffin, resting in peace... RIP granduncle.

it was like... life is so unpredictable, fragile and vulnerable.. changes happen everywhere... one moment u can be happy and another moment u r filled wif sadness...
many things happen for a reason, sometimes we noe the reason, but sometimes reason is not clear...
sometimes we do not know wad will happen nxt, but we will have to bear the consequences...
however we know the consequences sometimes, but we will still insist in doing it.....
i dunno.... so many things are so undescribable... or so abstract... that we dun understand..but we tot we actually understands... i mean ya.. i know u dun really understand wad i'm saying now... but i guess.. tis is me bah..lol..only the rite one could understand...how i am feeling now...

life and death is just a line different....
life after death is nothing... or otherwise...
if there are things that left unsaid after death...would it be called regrets?
but life has no due date... when will one noes his/her life is up...
i dun understand... but i hope i will nv no regret when i'm gone..

so i wan to say to terence.... i miss you...
i noe u wouldn't care whether i miss u anot..
but i jus wan to speak out my mind...
i duno where u are...
i duno wad u are doing now...
maybe u have forgottten me...
maybe you will say... mich u gotta let go..
maybe u dun even care..
i nv hold on to anything...
i just miss u...
takecare dude....

gd nite everyone...takecare...
be happy and stay cheer...
ciao !

11:35 PM;

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