{prologue}

preferred to be called: MichB
years of existence: 19
preoccupied with: eating, sleeping, cooking , throbbing, sighing, reading, flying, star-gazing

*loves:
{chocolate
{nature
{fireflies
{him
{waterfalls
{stars

*loathes:
{plastics
{back-biters
{pests
{back aches

{wishlist}

ipod
sony erisson w900
his love
Precious thoughts figurine
happiness

{fellows}

cheryl}
emily}
Shihui}
yahui}
weiren}
chee wee}
fira}
sulin}
daniel}

{express}
N {Shoutbox}


 
{credits}

 
Afianne
Blogskins.com
Kakii.com
Miss M
44suburbia
Foto Decadent

 
{bygone}

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Friday, March 16, 2007

right now i'm very ill.. last 2 nites i was having fever... then kept coughing... and mornin when i woke up.. i had lost my voice.. perhaps when one person is sick.. ur determination got weaken... and all ur old "sickness" come back.. i dun tink i'm get over with it... i tried for the past few months, isolated myself.. i dun even want to mention anything just treat everything had nv happen we were all frens.. i worked hard on it...but it just come back as it nv had left... sometimes i really thought my frens were right, i was thinking too much... maybe it was just purely my own wishful thinking... he treated me gd becoz we were gd frens... indeed we are good frens... and i crossed the line which i shldn be doing so.. if only he hadn't treat me that way...i wouldn't be thinking that much today... but it was like almost 2 yrs of memories.... almost everyday of seeing each other.... working with each other....and daily everything adds on...how am i supposed to forget.. many many things.. it's hard to put into words...
very tired... i dunno how shld be feeling exactly... i realised.. i'm motivated becoz of him for the past 2 yrs... is like he was always on my mind.... then things start to change.. when i start working....everything went wrong... becoz he is no longer in my life...feel kinda of loss... till now then i realised all this..perhaps you might say.. i've been taking things real hard... i agreed u with that... and i dunno y.. haha... i told my mum abt tis... not all..then she said if it was mine in the lst place, it will be... but things can't be ordered... so yup...maybe u can order mac delivery...haha... farnie wor... anyway...just wan to tell him..i miss him real badly... really badly...

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